I used to identify as tired.

Now I identify as the Master of my Energetic System.

With no defined motor centers – the two major ones completely open and exposed to the world – I had no sense of my own energetic boundaries.

The activated gates in my Root always want the most and the best out of everything.

With no defined motor centers – the two major ones completely open and exposed to the world – I had no sense of my own energetic boundaries.

The activated gates in my Root always want the most and the best out of everything.

With barely a filter for the outside world, I just went with whatever was happening in any environment I entered. I became the version of me that fit in there. I did what I felt was expected.

I often came home overwhelmed and exhausted. Days of recovery wouldn’t be enough and I was always catching up on rest.

While resting I reflected on what really happened to make me so tired.

Eventually I had to admit that some of the places I had been and some of the people I had been with were not healthy for me at all.

I started setting some serious, harsh, nonnegotiable boundaries.

I gave up on almost everything for a while – the world even joined me in that experiment in 2020.

Through years of reflecting and experimenting I figured out what did and did not work for me.

I came upon a system where I spend (what feels like) 70% of my time alone. I see loved ones one at a time and in specific circumstances.

When I go to group or bigger things, I set my boundaries beforehand and stick to them no matter what.

I feel like a weirdo sometimes and it can be awkward communicating these boundaries, but it is worth it because

I haven’t felt exhausted in a long time.

I can even enjoy feeling tired at the end of a good day of being myself and doing my thing.

Getting a handle on my intricate energetic system has been a monumental task and will probably continue to be a challenge all my life.

It feels like a privilege to take this on and even more of a privilege to share what I have learned with others.

Do you need guidance in navigating your unique energetic system?

I would love to support you.

Send me a message

connect@eraani.nl

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