“The magnet in my core always leads me in the right direction”

Self-Projected Projector

Human Design showed me that I have an inner compass. It told me I was a Self-Projected Projector and that I had an inner G center authority that I could listen to. In my first reading with Nayla Nadra (Instituut voor Human Design), she told me about the magnetic force inside me that pointed me in the right direction in each moment of my life.

While cycling through Amsterdam, I started practicing. When deciding on which supermarket to go to, I didn’t think about it, but felt into it instead. I tuned into that compass just below my sternum and followed the direction it pulled me to. Nothing groundbreaking happened as a result of these experiments, but I did become closely acquainted with my inner authority.

This is why I didn’t doubt it when it drew me towards India for my master’s field research. Arriving there, my G authority settled in and decided, we’re sticking around here for a while. I ended up postponing my graduation and living in Udaipur for two years. I only returned to the Netherlands because when I landed back there in 2015, my G said, that’s enough now; let’s build a life here.

Professional Analyst Training

This is why I didn’t doubt it when it drew me towards India for my master’s field research. Arriving there, my G authority settled in and decided, we’re sticking around here for a while. I ended up postponing my graduation and living in Udaipur for two years. I only returned to the Netherlands because when I landed back there in 2015, my G said, that’s enough now; let’s build a life here.

By that time the plans I had for after my graduation had been derailed. Instead of taking an internship and launching my career, I had dived into what felt like a PhD. Program – the Professional Analyst Training with Alokanand Diaz (Your Own Authority). I only had one clear goal on my horizon: becoming a Human Design teacher.

I completed my education in 2017. Time for life to take another unexpected turn. I was ready to be certified and launch myself on social media to start doing business, but I rushed my Analyst exam and I failed on a technicality. On top of that, my inner authority said no to going into business. It said no to making something of myself. No to becoming who I imagined I could be. It said, let it be, be here, rest, be alive.

I decided to surrender to it. My authority had never failed me yet, so I trusted it even when it gave me this bizarre challenge. It turned out to have sent me on the journey of integrating everything I had learned. I struggled with some very fundamental questions:

“I became who I am”

Readings geven

What kept me going was that every time I gave a reading, even if it was rare, it was a magical experience for both of us. There was something bigger at play in every reading. I said exactly the words the person on the other side of the table needed to hear. My message became about more than just communicating Human Design.

By surrendering to radical self-acceptance, I could guide those who were ready for it into a self-love tailored to where they were in their life. Every time I gave a reading, or had an inspired conversation, I felt empowered to keep going on the path I had come to.

For years I emerged myself in what I called Nothing. I discovered how full it truly is. Instead of expanding outward, I expanded inward. I did not move unless I was moved by the natural flow of life. I let go of any kind of force and any stories that told me things should be different than what they were.